Yeah - UO Divisi

Getting carried away

Just wanted to say sorry for posting so many videos, but I didn't want to put them all on facebook, LOL

On The Rocks - Cecilia - 11/21/08

On The Rocks - As Long As We Got Each Other - 3/6/09

On The Rocks - For the Longest Time

Nursing week!

It's Monday! Not a day typically celebrated, but for me, it means a day off! After a crazy string of 4 in a row, I am so pleased to see today roll around! LOL And what a crazy work week it was... I had a patient on hospice that ended up bringing me some insight. The family was having a rough time, understandably, and made the following comment... "I understand that you have other patients to care for, but she is the only one that matters to me." It's easy to not see things from others points of view. It's easy to get overwhelmed with all of the work that stands before you. And it is far too easy to avoid situations that make you uncomfortable rather than to meet them head on. I tried a new approach over the weekend. My patients stayed comfortable, their families relaxed, and the day seemed to flow. Not that I didn't have to hurdle some major obstacles, like a family who decided Saturday morning to discharge and didn't bother telling me till nearly too late, but still things got done, and I felt like I was making headway.

I question at times why I went into nursing, and the answer is this: At some point in my life, I will need a nurse. I will need someone to listen to me, to care for me, to ensure my safety, and to comfort my family when I am unable. And yes, there are other things that nurses do, but the good ones make it look easy, and still provide basic comforts and smile while they do it. And that is why I became a nurse. To make a difference and care about those entrusted to me.

Being a NURSE means you carry immense responsibility and very little authority. You step into people's lives and make a difference. Some bless you, others curse you. You see people at their worst and best. You see life begin and end. You see people's capacity for love, courage and endurance. ♥ IT'S NURSES APPRECIATION WEEK. REPOST IF YOU ARE A NURSE, LOVE A NURSE, AND/OR APPRECIATE A NURSE!!

Random depressing stories...

It's the craziest thing...

The closer Mav gets to finishing the police academy the more I seem to accept it! Not really the crazy part... The crazy part is how everytime I see a cop car I think, that'll be Mav... And then I envision some terrible fate awaiting the officer. In the snow storm, he stops to help someone who has slid off the road and another idiot driving way too fast slides off and hits him. He decides to pull someone over for speeding, and that random someone happens to be smuggling drugs, stoned beyond reality, and ends up shooting him...

It is easily the most morbid and depressing hobby of mine.

It's sad... It brings tears to my eyes! I really don't want him doing this... and at the same time I don't want him staying at Smiths forever, because he hates it there. Ugh. How then do I learn to quit waiting for every moment to be the moment some random officer is going to knock on my door and tell me how sorry they are?

Despite our struggles, I really don't know what I would do without this man. My never-ending source of support and love... The one who, at the end of the day sees my worst and loves me anyway. I guess from here on out I make sure everyday that he knows I love him, because who knows if it will be the last time I get to say it?

I know, I know... Be positive, don't think like that, don't even imagine it!

Put yourself in that spot, and tell me how easy it is not to think about it.

Anyways... I feel a little better putting that down, and not keeping it all bottled up all the time. :-)

Lazy May...

It's May!!! Where the hell has the time gone? Seems like just yesterday I was putting on my WSU nursing uniform, still in love with the purple and white... That quickly faded to overwhelming joy the day I wore it for the last time! Now I'm graduated... Weird! I have spent so much time invested in school I seriously do not know what to do with my time. Don't confuse this with a lack of things to do-I haven't cleaned for so long that everything needs a deep clean instead of the touch up stuff. I have painting plans, crafting plans, scrapbook pages to lay out... And of course NCLEX prep to do... Yet I can't seem to summon up the motivation to complete any projects, or start the ones that really need my attention-like the deck that seriously needs a splash of stain!

I'm working full time now-36 hours a week, usually in 2 or 4 day sets of 12 hours a piece. That leaves me with some serious chunks of time off (Currently on day 4 of 5 off). So, where is my motivation? (I did look under the bed and the couch cushions before I asked) Maybe I need to make a list of things I would like to accomplish. But, then again, I don't want to go find a pen and a piece of paper! Lordy... it's gonna be a lazy May!